We’ve lived in our house for nearly a decade. It has been almost ten years since we looked round the house, noticed that the garden was huge, had a holly tree and a rhododendron bush and thought it might just be the place for us.
Since we moved in we have experimented, designed, dug, planted, mowed, weeded, changed, adapted, moved plants, removed plants, pruned and sowed. We also brought in a greenhouse some five years ago, with the intention of using it once we had built the new shed, removed the old shed and made space for it. The greenhouse was a bargain; a friend wanted £50 for it so we had it even though we were nowhere ready for it. And I really wasn’t ready; I’ve blogged before about how I have not enjoyed the physical work of gardening but in the last couple of years it has started to appeal to me a lot more, and I am ready for that greenhouse now.
Anyway, last summer, the new shed was built. This weekend we have taken down the old shed, lifted the crazy paved patio and moved the greenhouse into the spot that is to be its home. It now has the beginnings of a concrete base and as I write, the bloke is putting the glass in. In almost no time at all, we’re going to have a usable greenhouse! I am unbelievable excited about this and already have a number of trays of seeds ready to find their home in there. The greenhouse will soon be finished, but I feel like my gardening life has just begun!
I have had the loveliest day today. A bit of a lie in, Marmite for breakfast, lunch with a mate, a bit of shopping then home to watch the birds in the garden. Today’s spectacle was provided by these two. One blue tit arrived, checked out what was on offer, had a taste of everything, chirped and flew off. After about a minute he was joined by another blue tit, and one watched while the other ate (they definitely had their beady little eyes on me) and then they swapped over. I also saw a heron go over this afternoon, as well as the ubiquitous pigeons, gulls, magpies and sparrows. See what I mean about urban wildlife?
I sat for the best part of an hour this evening watching the sparrows and then this robin feeding. Urban wildlife is so fascinating – these creatures are cautious, but not timid. The sparrows are, we think, the birds we watched as fledglings last year, and they are perfectly happy going about their business with us around. The robin is an opportunist who appears when the feeder has been filled up or when gardening has taken place!
I found it hard not to be sad today. I woke up and picked up my phone, as I always do, and saw the stream of tweets and Facebook updates about Mothers’ Day. My lovely women friends, describing their gifts and cards, their breakfasts in bed, the handicrafts brought home from school and pre-school in sticky fists and handed over with love. Those didn’t make me sad. I smiled, and clicked ‘like this’, and rolled over and relished the fact that a lie-in is pretty normal here, with no babies or toddlers to wrench me from my bed. I made the right choice, it suits me.
It’s the things I didn’t choose that make me sad. I miss my Mom. We sent flowers to my Mother in Law and I was happy that she loved them, and I don’t find myself having panic attacks in card shops when I choose a card for her these days. But there’s a weird sort of limbo about Mothers’ Day when it doesn’t really touch you. As a woman who is not a mother and no longer has a mother, I felt a bit…well, out of the loop.
I mused on this throughout the morning, and when a series of unfortunate events (i.e. a phone call from The Bloke’s work) meant our plans to go out for a walk were scuppered, I took my camera out into the garden to see what was happening out there. It seemed appropriate that a clump of Forget-Me-Nots have come up, presenting their first flowers of the year as a tiny, perfect posy; and this, and the fact that I will NEVER forget, is my token of appreciation for my Mom.
I am weighty.
I have spent the last decade on a diet, or gaining weight having been on a diet. Before that, I was the bonny baby, the chubby child, the kid who was never picked for the team, the one who ‘would be really pretty if you lost a bit of weight.’
And since last September I’ve been on Slimming World. I have lost a stone, one measly stone, and that frustrates me. As of yesterday, I’m back to Weight Watchers, which works for me (when I work at it), and to celebrate the decision I made pizza, Weight Watchers style, for dinner.
These days I’m too old for the team and too mature to be pretty, but I am hoping that I might at least be fitter, healthier and in smaller clothes by the time the summer comes.